This is an archived posting from my previous website “Chips Antidotal Wanderings” – a personal blog about family, creative moments, and pain management activities in my life. That blog was active from 2004-2011.

I haven’t done any crafting for a while now.  My migraines have spun completely out of control again.  So I spend most of my time in a not-so-good state of mind and trying to manage the pain.  Creative visioning is about the extent of my artful activities.

Some weeks I’m on sick leave more than I’m working and that’s not helping my situation.  Some days I feel guilty when I call in sick or have to leave work early, but it just can’t be helped.

Thankfully they haven’t spiraled out as bad as they were two years ago when I was having them an average of 28 a month.  Right now I’m still at about 18 a month.  We know one of the reasons my body is over sensitive again is because of the construction and carpet change outs at work.  Every time they change the carpets I go through this mess and it usually takes 6-8 months for my system to settle back down to it’s normal level.  I’m just not sure I’m up to waiting that long this go around.

The loneliness of sitting in the dark in pain day after day gets to me and my sadness creeps closer to depression than I’m comfortable with.  I don’t like living this sort of life and I long for the days when I can feel less pressure – both in life and in my head!

The only thing that’s helping to keep my spirits up are my creativity visualizing therapies.  They lower my pain.  They help me feel better about things and look forward to days when I can be creative with my hands again!

DSD-Professionals No More

I sold the Digi-Scrap Association to one of my partners last week.  As much as I hated to let it go, my continuing health issues has left me limited options.  It’s important for me to watch how I spend my energies more now than ever before.  It was a tough decision to make, but “know-thy-self” is what my doctor and my husband have been preaching to me for a while now.  So I finally listened and decided that was one of the things I needed to take off my plate.  I’m sad to see it go, but I think it’s in good hands and I wish them the best as they move forward with the business.

The game plan is for me to retire from my job on base in the next 2-3 years or so.  Which should help my health situation a lot – sense the biggest triggers I experience are directly related to my work environment.  Mr Greg is still a bit nervous about how I will handle the changes of selling my largest online business and maybe retiring from the base.  He’s been helping me look at other options that will hopefully be better for my health.

In the mean time – we hope my body will go back to normal and let me live a happier, healthier life!  Maybe, just maybe I’ll even be able to get back online more often and play with my creative side too.  Wish me luck!

~Cindy

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